Remembering snippets of Pabs pregnancy to.. Fifers turned up to the house near Newburgh cause work that slavers expect wasn't getting done. Think the first thing one of them said was "What the fuck are you wearing?" But we were naked, all our clothes had been taken, the water turned off. We survived by killing one of the farmers cows but that was taken away from us to. We were covered in gore, a small white stripe across our belly where we had kept a protective arm over our pregnant belly as we fought endlessly. One of them commented on the stench. No one was taking away the corpses that were pilling up at the back of the house. We said we couldn't keep taking the tech out of them and some still had them. They said not to worry about that of course.
They showered us, soaked us, scrubbed us to get the gore of. And fed us while parts of us slept we hadn't been able to sleep for a long time and littles were terrified to eat because of something they had been told would happen if we did. We were not going to let them flat line the fetus and we were not up for dying either so on and on it went and anyone human who tired to help completely unprepared for what we were fighting and were taken out or just a liability so we made them leave. They would think it was safe to sleep, drink tap water, listen to music, or leave the house and stuff.. No fucking clue.
Think when things were bad but not that bad we overheard something saying that if we didn't die or if the baby wasn't flat lined we would stop Trump from becoming president and we knew that was our remaining access to anything removed and we would be fighting non stop until it got in the way of some other Satanic crap and that would take a long time.. There was and is of course always been all kinds of hell trying to take out the first born. But we sent Gabe away for training and let them rig the super bomb to go if he came back to Earth. It would of killed him seeing how we were treated seeing how much international violence and forces was being directed at one pregnant woman and how many "people who knew" us were involved and how horrific they all really were/are. Dont know if he has forgiven me for that completely, my sis cause we did the same to her ages ago. We got a few mins last year and he said he has and we could say 21st 2017 hun you can come home, you can get me and Pabs out, you can do whatever the hell you like..
If stuff like that had gotten out vetos would of been removed long before now but no one thinks, no one talks, no one hopes and no one dreams down here so nothing ever got anywhere.
We couldn't believe it when we saw the lines of decommised corpses last year, no Johnstons or Andersons but the things they made to attend school with us, people who knew Margo, weegies, scum from Aberdeen University. Think we wept when someone showed us the current students lining the Spittal arms raised but fists closed and shouting "Fail Satan", Aberdeen uni has always been horrific this was the first time ever that it wasn't in its entire history.. They sang for us to. It was wonderful. The smile on Lee when he turned up with the second truck to return the carrion to Aberdeen, was pretty wonderful. As was feeling Kerry respond down in Glasgow when Erin approach a corpse that we left a little present for her in and blew her to pieces. Dan we knew would be tricky because of what they had done to auntie Beth and because they were trained by the same Fascists that took down my mom. We caught up with him though and decapitated the fucker. Knowing we lived on a planet that no longer contained Alan Morrison or Paul Sweeny and his faked little bro was pretty sweet to. Especially as it meant gorgeous younger Sweeney could step out the bushes and still be all lovely. He says he can't look at us without remembering us beating the shit out of U2s pedo photographer when wee. The way he looked at us for that has never left us either.
But then we have the year and half since then and we know everyone was flat lined to keep them down for the rest of 16 and 2017, including us. We were swallowing anti psychotics (psychotics) for six months for six months. Think we might be coming out of that now though huh? We had no choice but to reprogram our self and flat line our self which is not something you can do if you don't have a shit tonne of education, experience and support from places and life forms far far away from this filth.
For fuck sake though. We need a hug from a non dependent, from someone who will brush their teeth and put rubbish in the bin without us nagging at them to do it.