May 24, 2017

Sirs you have not be put here for the reasons they told you it's the opposite

Well proud or our work today. We managed to get three rolls of the wicker edging down. We decided we would intentionally make the line down the path wiggly but its maybe a bit more unevenly wavy than we want. Don't know though, might just leave it. Put the yellow and black pansy and the purple stock in the path border as well as some poor night scented seedlings that have gone through a lot all ready what with being far to many of them, then dropping the tray they were in then putting them in a planter we couldn't properly fill.. There is considerably less now. Hope some of them make it. Bloody cats. We also literally chucked a packet of Nigella around as well (thats fancy corn flowers) the packet said to seed in place!

If there is enough money in the bank there will be baby Livingston Daisy coming soon. They are ordered..We remember the flea stuff for the cats to! Hope it comes of first.

There should be just enough edging left for the bottom buddleia. They are both looking really good and growing really well. One of them wilts every now and again but when we water it it comes back straight away. They have different greens foliage and not just down to different conditions either cause they are both looking so well. Cool though. They other one thats up near the top is slowly doing better it was the worst when it came out the box, the pot was just nothing but roots so we try and remember and give it lots of little drinks. It is growing. We didn't help it by burning it with food but it seems to be recovering from that to..

The first purple flower on the viola is great and the rest shouldn't be to far behind. We are at that really really chuffed stage with it. It's still May so the novelty of colour and smells is a long way from wearing off. We have made so much difference out there. Dude said it was like a garden from a mansion. That was cool.

Got some browning in today to. Thank fuck for good weather days so we have something else to do and a different lovely space to be in. Physical work to do that makes a pleasing difference to take out mind of May and her government who are protecting networks of child abusers and killers that are and have been offending for decades but now she is putting troops on streets to protect kids? It is the cynicalist and nastiest of bs and is triggering all sorts with us in terms of Manchester abuse rings (mostly white) and finally be able to explain British terrorism and its connections to R.A to the Europeans before leaving Dundee but in utterly extreme circumstances.  They were and are not amused. Explaining the history of British R.A in Russia to Russians that are seriously not supposed to know. Similarly, not amused people.

And of course the bairns.

Being outside the Dolly Parton concert and realising whether we could be arsed with any of this or not we looked at those armed bairns, felt the terror in the folks and knew we had to do something. When Europeans were begging us for safe British military or any other kind of safe British contacts they were all we could come up with. They were around last year. We were quite pleasantry surprised, one of our sisters who had much less immediate personal issues horrendous experiences with British authorities and had done a really good job with them. Seriously. They were amazing and it creeped us out a bit.. We trust her though and also don't trust ourself with assessing Brits when we know we are going nowhere short term.

Anyway. Goods things. Growing colour, making pretty, digging earth, drinking Guinness and smoking weed in the sun. Have a good feeling about tomorrows weather..






May 21, 2017

Speaking sweetly to a victim is not resisting slavery

Well half q is not going to last long and as the weather has been crappy and all we can expose ourself to is twitter and CNN telling us we don't and never have existed our mood is predictable low. It's lovely yesterday being a bit intoxicated which loosens some of the brain shackles, no nothing left today though already been through bin bag and ash trays for roaches.. As everyday means more issues pass from "It will be very bad if this happens partly because it will be easily avoidable" into something that has happened and can't be avoided any more and still having to being present in form for the ALF (adorable little fucker) without some chemical back up is fucking horrible.

The grooming and fake intel ops had the majority convinced that when we said "very bad" we were only ever talking about ourself and the kids trying to get through those levels of unchallenged entitlement and exceptionalism was impossible. Those who were working for the Russian Fascists and the worst of RA told them it was us and not them so the people we went to for help and spread awareness of with Russian democratic meddling and worst of the international RA started treating us in ways and using triggers as they were advised to by their rapist, child trafficking, treasonous colleges. They were not even interested and looking at anything we had to offer on anything and left us all to the rings.

Every now again something would come up and we would get a call or a visit like we were some respected and paid member of the IC but usually there was just abuse, it never ends. But all they have now is me and Pabs, the scariest off their tech, my twenty something sisters and our legions of spawn, our mum and our dad are out of their reach. Sky is out of there reach, to some of us he became our only priority and it was the thought of him losing us that kept us alive. Knowing abusers can't trigger or threaten us over him is really something. So many just couldn't understand why he was so important to us "just a bairn quine you will have plenty more" while American's were sure there must of been some strategic reason like he was seed or a weapon we wanted secured.

We told a couple of them last summer, "He's not a fucking seed. His DNA is reason you keep trying to kill him not the reason we want him safe." Think they asked why and we were not up for trying to explain the bond that happens between a amnesiac locked up very violently abused child and the child she was forced to conceive and carry and who is being abused by the same people so we just said that he's our son and we love him and he loves us. They looked confused. She said she wasn't interested in his DNA but that he's her son and she loves him??

Reality always confuses them because they were convinced they would never see or have to deal with any of it. Reality is supposed be long gone from the scene by the time they show up. Like we said to them, "What does it matter you what's going on here, you were given a script about what to say about all this before you even got here anyway?"

The long established protocal with U.S intel and myself if that they ignore everything I say and everything they see and just repeat whatever the Fascist Brits or other Fascist yanks tell them.

There is a feeling of safety in the state of play. We are not worried about agents, traffickers and their associate triggering us and grooming us into believe they can or would help us. There was no other relevant or interested parties that we could given more information or more possible avenues of action. There is no immediate danger in some contacting us and there hasn't been for months but everyone pretends their life is on rails when every second of everyday is a crossroads.

Our life of course is chained to some very serious rails and it looks like it will continue to be until we have lost enough amnesia so we can access whatever we need to access to get me ALF out of here permanently and you can all get on with pretending you didn't have a choice.




May 20, 2017

Imagine choosing Trump over us and everyone else ever

Okay mild and cozy intoxication it is then. New bag of canna compost is here but it's bloody raining anyway.  Lad's got a full tummy. Can we, should we state where we at with Pablo's paternal match? We can say that not long after Sky was born and in the exact same hell but worse because they were torturing and starving me and my baby we conceived again but someone managed to help with an earlyish medical abortion where we where. They took everything to leave as little evidence of possible of it in the locals drains and to secure the facts and ID. Some top level early ninities Satanic scene children by rape to world leaders that they keep to use against us and the said "world leaders" and people in positions to make a difference to the slavery. We believe here and now she was a Trumps. We never talked about the how and the who over the termination then or since to those we were part of making all that happen and and now but we can't not say that it was indeed Vatican related. Actually, when that poor part of that poor child said that it was when it hit home to so many that telling the truth as away of keeping cunts away from truth worked really well a lot.

Pablo? We can't say. More pink wine. We can say that there has been at various times and in various places that its Putin and as we know we have discussed other possibilities for it seems fair enough to mention that name has been mentioned. As we remember here and now often by audibly shaken forensic Intel people. In Newburgh we remember we managed to get up a little and pretended to by a abuse ring member so we could film some fiction in Margo's front room. Once we got we needed and started talking to the folk who had been sent over a little bit. We remember moments with the guy dressed up as Putin, he was a good guy it was fucking awful having him dressed and masked up like that and he could see it.

Years and years and many many traumas later we got the call, as far as we know from Vlad in his office to the landline in Fintry where he discusses junior and agrees to stop trying to have us killed. There was a lot more to the call of course but we got what we needed out of it.

A bit later we were still on the couch dazed and exhausted the phone rang and we answered. We freaked before we realised how much time had past when we checked the clock and saw it was a safer time.

"Ah yeah Sir.. You heard that."

He didn't have much to say and we had even less any way but he wanted to let us know we were not completely alone with all this and that meant a lot. 

May 19, 2017

Cheers

Didnt do much today. Got the lad off but felt too upset about being on our own and the state of it all down here and giving our self zero chance of getting over this cough by the amount we are smoking as we burned through the rest of it. It wasn't sunny but it was dry and wasn't cold so we found ourself out the back rearranging pots, sweeping and attempting to limit pussy cat damage. Got a grocery delivery which came with Friday night bolog vino and a bottle of Mattis for when its warm next. Also got a half q delivered just as we were plating up which is good timing and picked up our bi monthly diazepam which might not last the weekend, not because we feel particularly down or anxious but because we want to experience as much not being down as we can in a day to day, minute by minute type way.

We do love May in these parts a bit don't we? The stuff coming into bloom, the seedlings that are no where near it, the rampage greenage everywhere, the cherry blossoms littering everything, the sweet organic stenches. Our own sweet organic white flower stenchy stuff is doing mentak as it did last year. We actually ripped some of it up to make safe for violas and have attempted to move of it to the path border that we have made a good start on. Amazon say they bordering and more compost has been dispatched.. A couple of seed packets on the way to, some love in the mist cause they are relatively easy so cool and some trailing stuff we can't remember the name of. Another bright plastic balcony pot thing instead of the trough we already have has been ordered to, they come in bright colours, and with easy hanging fixtures they are cheap with watery trays inbuilt. As much we eye ball stylish stone and ceramic beauties they weigh a tonne and are a shit load more expensive. Fuck it this shit needs to be shared




More soon or hopefully not, would love to be able to post pictures without having to tweet them first but the tech phobia is awful.. and he is going to be ten soon..

We can always show how its all developing if we are going to kept here for months longer. The violas are looking fine and will be amazing when they start flowering to. Starting a new garden, somewhere else with some/s else to help and enjoy it would be better of course. Gives us a lot of simple happy pleasures but we have to keep in the present and out of wider contexts as much as we can. This is our worst case scenario and we are making the most of it but it doesn't mean anything more than that and when we remind ourselves of that go back to being able to appreciate it in the here and now without being paranoid that we are investigating in the continuation in the denial of our own human rights.

Did we say the edging is on it's way? And lobellia seeds, a violent colour. We were thinking we probably don't have that specific colour so we can always take some with us.

Well we are quite intoxicated and need to go eat more food.

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"It will never be public that you have over twenty identical sisters. Never."

"Telling the public how many sisters I have has never been a priority Sir we just don't want to be raped and enslaved any more"




May 18, 2017

Yesterday was the 17th of May

A bday and as we weren't born on Earth, our only "birthday" down here. We woke up twice in time to think fuck it lets not about school, noticed Chelsea had been released but as we remember it it wasn't until after we had done a good bit of kitchen cleaning, a fair bit of gardening and were suppin some pink wine that it really dawned on us. We over indulged particularly on the Chinese food to point to puking but we did a fair bit and had a bath salts soak to so it was already pretty good.

We filled the compost wheelie bin with leaves and crap from the bottom bit which is kind of bugging cause its almost a fortnight before its lifted. Cut back one of the wild bushes that has rooted itself under the steps and made a new border bit at the top! That meant weeding deplasticing, de rocking after that we couldn't not but put whatever seedlings we found that we either knew at least suspected of not being weeds when they are far to small and will be trampled, dug up and poisoned by cats. We moved one of the buddleias up there to. The sickliest ridiculously root bound one, it is improving but will get better light and care up there and they were too close where they were anyway. Think it means to two left are pink and red though but they are looking to happy to move.

We did a little bit of chuckie racking to, so yeah quite stiff today only planning on sweeping and tidying today its sunny and cloudy this now so if that holds that would be perfect.

When we were in the Chinese last night Channel Four news came on all focused on the last US crisis and the word "impeachment" was used multi times from multi people. Not that we think that means they will of course and either way we know the damage being done to people and institutions minute by minute day by day is often irrevocable and unforgivable and of course avoidable. Still though its better than not hearing the word lots, much better. Love that meme.. "Stop calling me orange! #Impeach ..

Can't fucking watch much this now. Can't look them in the eye, don't want to do it to them or to us.  Skene bedroom 90s stuff, the battered kid outside the house telling as they got in there cars that Comey is not to believed and the baby in our arms is his. They were fucking horrible. The programming for his public testimony they forced us into giving him personally but only after assurances he wouldnt be allowed to lay a figure on us he fucking tried though. Put his hand on our shoulder trying to instruct us in something and an older kid burst him and we had to inform Comey that this had only happened because we had been allowed by his employer to have personal assurance present that he would not be allowed any physical contact at all. He looked surprised that we had be able to make that a thing from this end. We were shaking and are now to. Another condition was that baby Sky wound go somewhere safe. We knew they had no intention of him or me ever being safe but they could get him out of where we were. The fight for him never stopped. We didn't get him safe until last June.

The coup happened a long time ago they are consolidating now.

We said of course when they got what they wanted and were sending in less horrific monsters that if this happened there would definitely be no more "us" as in communications between ourself and the states.

And on another not completely separate issue, the thing with Earth has never been its human biological diversity. Never and certainty not now. What anything that can value anything appreciates here is the all other kinds of biological diversity. However, as we have been part of long term efforts to increase the diversity and the potential for it elsewhere while Earth peoples continues to resist our efforts to stop if from destroying its  diversity it should be known that in terms of seeds & anything that we needed we got the last of it last June. That is not to say we wouldn't give a fuck if our lovely cute garden was incinerated and/or irritated we would prefer not and are obviously not going to do it ourselves but we would also be unable to stop it because that is not how the system is set up these days.

Your very strongly advised to pay the Witch.




May 16, 2017

Yo Kim

It's not like we didn't know that this was how it's going to be but still watching the Americans destroy themselves when it all could of been avoided if they had respected their own laws. Seeing them protect and pay so many rapists and child abusers and agents with anti American agendas knowing we shared so much with them, gave them so much proof while working so hard against all this is horrible. There is no and mostly never was a Mummy/CIA and Daddy/FBI there is the Cynical Ignorant Assholes and Fascist Bastards Inc. The last blog where we talked about the marriage and US I.D and what it meant to us wasn't us getting in touch with an American core it was a step in us moving away from the denial. They can keep our USA I.D, of course they can they chose protecting the trafficking, the slavery, the rape and the lies over us and all our babies.

It's of no surprise to mum of course but you can not blame her. She heard us when we talked about hope for America and hope for Earth and saw how we were not basing that hope on grooming and in later years she encouraged us in very blunt terms to not give up on them even though she had no time for any of them because she saw how upset we were, knew we had gotten and given a lot of love there and were not done with it. Everyone us always been so fucking obviously relieved whenever we say we have been evaluating and scuttling and sabotaging every we can for the last ten years for our less "Scottish" parts and years since then for everyone else.

It's rapidly approaching June 2017 we did everything that we needed to do and said we were going to do and then some but we are still fucking here with no word from no cunt.  We know we always we said to everyone that if that happened there would be no protocol, no amnesiac open parts and no more warnings. No fucking friendships, no lovers, no comrades, no peers and sure as hell no "superiors". If we are without contacts now and still under horrific slave systems with thirty years of the shit we said was going to historical record then there is nothing to discuss. It's just time for me and the lad leave.


May 11, 2017

Nigger Lover

Neither of us were bothered when we heard them say it. What a state to be in to say that, then and there. There troubles are over and we had enthusiastic public ritualised kissing to continue. We knew there troubles were over and neither of us or anyone else flinched or looked when it happened. There was a few other wrong uns around that did. Think it was easier from them to look at death and blood and corpses than the married couple anyway.   I didn't look until I was asked for this post title.

It was only the day before we had been able to tell him our real name, just a few feat away from where we were now in the car park outside the observation ward at Stratheden Hospital, Cupar, Fife, Scotland, June 2016.. The weather was pretty good like it had been the day before. Even the Kremlin wouldn't of been better. Once he had our name our protectors could take his DNA and details, after all these fucking years.. They phoned back to gently and respectfully suggest we ask him to marry us. There arguments were pretty sound and the rest of us weren't objecting. This was one of those things, one of those eighties things said between slave kids that we built our amnesiac self on. Everyone was already there. There wasn't much time. Certainly not time to be fretting about asking him in front of everyone.

He was kinda blindsided. Seen the state of us struggling to speak and thought the worst. No wonder. The next we knew though he was holding us and lifting us off the ground and we got the affirmative.  The state of everyone was ace. The jubilant, the tearful, relieved,  the disgusted and the oh for fuck sake whatevers. There was a scramble for officialaries and I.D. The couple of non toxic yank feds that we had there just to witness so we knew at least someone in the America intels had some awareness of everything and had been standing about mostly bewildered pulled out our U.S I.D we were happy with that, anything but the one we have basically but we were so relieved when we saw the name.

Waiting for a window to do it wasn't fun, it wasn't long but watching those screens and seeing everything that was going down and being attempted with a level consciousness and emotional connectivity we had not had before was really unpleasant. Ok folks we got 10 - 15 tops.

And indeed 10 - 15 minutes later one of our Generals wiped a tear, stepped out congratulated us told us it was about bloody time and we hit those front lines like an I don't know what..

Later on when things had calmed down and people could eat and relax and party a bit we found our Dad with our I.D in hand. We waited until he knew what we were showing him before we uncovered the 'e' with our thumb. Rosa. His name for me. Hubs, he took our names no matter what always.. Tupac Stuart King.